而且都是uncle！
啊，我不依！
有个uncle 想要包我去巴厘岛，另外一个uncle 在认识我之后就说想带我到处去玩，有一个已经着手订着周末 Fraser Hill 酒店的房间。
从好的方面想，或是我还有一点魅力，或是他们都喜欢我的陪伴。
从坏的方面想，或是我的市场已越渐“成熟”，或是他们只是寂寞要人陪。
是 uncle 才有钱有闲嘛！我懂的。幸好我对 uncle 没有抗拒，也相当喜欢他们的稳重及知识。
巴厘岛uncle 我已经婉拒了，从此音讯全无。 哈哈！
到处玩uncle 我有心他没有，说说而已，电话越来越少，见面更是越来越从缺。
至少 Fraser Hill uncle， 我觉得他对我是真心的。看造化啦！
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Sunday, June 21, 2009
Thursday, June 4, 2009
重新开始
每个人都会在人生的不同阶段停滞，有些是死路，有些是瓶颈，有些不过是小小的障碍。大约是半年前的时间，我的人生长跑中出现了瓶颈，也跑到了死路。转回头是一片灰茫，向前看是一片死寂。老实说，这半年的时间我一直在原地踏步。不是因为惧怕，也不是拒绝改变，而是踌躇，因为不知道第一步应该踏向哪里。
常听说时间能治愈一切。如果不是真的，它至少能让感觉麻木。麻木了，心灵才会多出一点空间省思要到达的目标，或只是纯粹的如何从死胡同里走出来。
上个星期做的健康检验报告也在前天拿到了。除了尿酸及胆固醇稍微超标，身体一切良好。没有梅毒，也没有爱滋。
犹豫好久的健身中心会员籍，上个星期也一并签了。希望接下来的三年半能持续的运动，游泳和做瑜伽。
跟阿历斯的感情略见曙光，不敢多想，就顺其自然吧。
仿佛在死胡同一个阴暗的角落看到了一扇门，只有在暗处待了好一阵子瞳孔开始适应了才发觉它的存在。开了会有阳光吗？还是只是另一个胡同？我希望是一个起点，让我重新开始。
常听说时间能治愈一切。如果不是真的，它至少能让感觉麻木。麻木了，心灵才会多出一点空间省思要到达的目标，或只是纯粹的如何从死胡同里走出来。
上个星期做的健康检验报告也在前天拿到了。除了尿酸及胆固醇稍微超标，身体一切良好。没有梅毒，也没有爱滋。
犹豫好久的健身中心会员籍，上个星期也一并签了。希望接下来的三年半能持续的运动，游泳和做瑜伽。
跟阿历斯的感情略见曙光，不敢多想，就顺其自然吧。
仿佛在死胡同一个阴暗的角落看到了一扇门，只有在暗处待了好一阵子瞳孔开始适应了才发觉它的存在。开了会有阳光吗？还是只是另一个胡同？我希望是一个起点，让我重新开始。
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
败家仔
我对书本和影音光碟没有多大的免疫力。
茨厂街大众书局中文部已决定搬迁至Jalan Hang Lekir 的英文部那儿，现在正举行搬迁大折扣，相当多书都抛出70-80%的价钱。对我这些没有免疫力的人是致命的伤害。
上个星期已和老姐拜访了一趟，扫了6本书总共损伤RM58。昨天下午又和另一个朋友再走一趟，又再次损伤RM58。荷包顿时清减了许多，换来的是午后及睡前的精神进食。
大众书局后跟朋友提起Hartamas的“彩虹商店”，他只听说所以想去拜访，所以我们又风尘仆仆的驾车前去。就这样，我又买了近RM60的同志题材电影光碟。再看看他们有没有性玩具可以买（嘻嘻），虽说他们选择少存货不多又不打算再补货，但我之前买了的超大dildo不太用得着，所以我又以RM90的价钱买了一个普通尺码的dildo。幸好他们没有我一直在找的anaeros，我的荷包才没有再大出血。
总之，在去柬埔寨之前呢，我都不该和不能再败家了！切记切忌！
唉...
Monday, November 17, 2008
He doesn't love me anymore...
Ok, maybe i'm wrong about the title. He still love me, but he is not in love with me anymore.
You know it, when he is so happy and willing to neglect work and chat with other friends, but when you try to chat with him, he says he got work to do.
You know it, when he is quiet or having those bored face while supper with you, and he did not even want to look at your face or initiate a talk. But when it comes to his other friends, he pays full attention, reciprocate, laugh with them and he doesn't even notice you by his side or include you in their conversation.
You know it, when he doesn't ask for sex anymore. and he is always tired, prefer to masturbate, and if you insist that you are goddamn horny, he will only then give in to you.
You know it, when he constantly flirt with strangers on the net...
but you know, you will never know it, only until the time comes.
so fuck it. love yourself more. perhaps i should think positively. i just have to be myself, love myself more, and maybe the vibes and self confidence will attract him and love me like he used to be.
update: ya, it's true he doesn't love me anymore, not the same intensity he used to be. so he has decided to call our 3 years relationship off. now, i'm back to single life - life goes on, and i'm alive and kicking!
You know it, when he is so happy and willing to neglect work and chat with other friends, but when you try to chat with him, he says he got work to do.
You know it, when he is quiet or having those bored face while supper with you, and he did not even want to look at your face or initiate a talk. But when it comes to his other friends, he pays full attention, reciprocate, laugh with them and he doesn't even notice you by his side or include you in their conversation.
You know it, when he doesn't ask for sex anymore. and he is always tired, prefer to masturbate, and if you insist that you are goddamn horny, he will only then give in to you.
You know it, when he constantly flirt with strangers on the net...
but you know, you will never know it, only until the time comes.
so fuck it. love yourself more. perhaps i should think positively. i just have to be myself, love myself more, and maybe the vibes and self confidence will attract him and love me like he used to be.
update: ya, it's true he doesn't love me anymore, not the same intensity he used to be. so he has decided to call our 3 years relationship off. now, i'm back to single life - life goes on, and i'm alive and kicking!
Monday, October 20, 2008
我的同话故事 1.4
就这样，时间过了三天，也还依然没有人敲我房门。今晚又是上演绎课的时候了。我一如往常的在泳队训练后，提早到达剧院。可能因为太早，连剧院大门也还未打开。我把摩托停放在路边，独自坐上机车座，从书包里掏出课本就读。
大概过了五分钟，一辆摩托从远处驶来。说是驶来，倒不如说是顺着斜坡慢慢滑过来，然后在我身边停下。我一眼就认出他了。当他把头盔脱下时，他对我腼腆的笑了笑。老实说我也有点不知所措，尴尬的轻轻回于一笑。他把头盔及书包放进铁篮，笑脸殷殷的往我的方向走来。
“Hey, my name is Kali.”
我当然知道你是谁啦，我心里想，思绪凌乱。“You can call me GD.”
“You are always so early.”
“Yup, just after my training, don’t feel like going back to hostel, so… ya…”
“I heard you are a swimmer… and a lifeguard too… right?”
“Haha, you can’t tell from my body right? I’m just too thin. Haha, a disgrace to my team really.”
“Your body look great!”
我心里想，你这家伙还真敢！“Thanks anyway!”
沉默……
结果还是他先开口，“Hey, I’m from management school, so I have totally no experience in performing arts. I took this paper out of my interest, but I found it difficult to understand some of the lectures…”
我心里想，来了来了，竟然这么快就要使出KK那一招了吗？“Em hmm…”
“So I’m thinking if it’s possible, can I borrow your notes, well just to compare notes…”
“Well, ok… but I didn’t bring it with me today wor… how?”
我伸手往书包里掏了掏，其实笔记早就好好地放在书包里了，但我还是故意地说了以上那一段话。我当然有我的计谋啦！
“If you don’t mind I can go over to your hostel tomorrow night to collect it, maybe I can also take that time to ask you about some parts of the notes that I’m not clear with… can?”
“Haha, sure can!”
“So, I’ll just knock on your door tomorrow ok!”
“Sure, no problem.”
沉默……
“You don’t know about my room number and the hostel I stay in, how are you going to find me huh?”
他仿佛像做了错事的小孩被揭穿般的模样，腼腆的笑笑说，“Ya hor, where do you stay actually huh?”
看到他的笑容，还有深深的梨窝，我心想，好帅的男生哦！“I’m staying at Desa Aman, room 207.”
“OK… thanks!”
“So, tomorrow is it? About what time you’ll be coming?”
“9 something or 10… depends on whether you are free during that time…”
“I will be in whole night, so you come around 9 should be fine!”
“OK!”
结果那一晚的课我完全听不进去，眼神一直在追踪着Kali的身影。好几次眼神跟他碰上时，我们彼此都会心的一笑。而我的心，早已在彩排着明晚的对白了……
(4…待续)
大概过了五分钟，一辆摩托从远处驶来。说是驶来，倒不如说是顺着斜坡慢慢滑过来，然后在我身边停下。我一眼就认出他了。当他把头盔脱下时，他对我腼腆的笑了笑。老实说我也有点不知所措，尴尬的轻轻回于一笑。他把头盔及书包放进铁篮，笑脸殷殷的往我的方向走来。
“Hey, my name is Kali.”
我当然知道你是谁啦，我心里想，思绪凌乱。“You can call me GD.”
“You are always so early.”
“Yup, just after my training, don’t feel like going back to hostel, so… ya…”
“I heard you are a swimmer… and a lifeguard too… right?”
“Haha, you can’t tell from my body right? I’m just too thin. Haha, a disgrace to my team really.”
“Your body look great!”
我心里想，你这家伙还真敢！“Thanks anyway!”
沉默……
结果还是他先开口，“Hey, I’m from management school, so I have totally no experience in performing arts. I took this paper out of my interest, but I found it difficult to understand some of the lectures…”
我心里想，来了来了，竟然这么快就要使出KK那一招了吗？“Em hmm…”
“So I’m thinking if it’s possible, can I borrow your notes, well just to compare notes…”
“Well, ok… but I didn’t bring it with me today wor… how?”
我伸手往书包里掏了掏，其实笔记早就好好地放在书包里了，但我还是故意地说了以上那一段话。我当然有我的计谋啦！
“If you don’t mind I can go over to your hostel tomorrow night to collect it, maybe I can also take that time to ask you about some parts of the notes that I’m not clear with… can?”
“Haha, sure can!”
“So, I’ll just knock on your door tomorrow ok!”
“Sure, no problem.”
沉默……
“You don’t know about my room number and the hostel I stay in, how are you going to find me huh?”
他仿佛像做了错事的小孩被揭穿般的模样，腼腆的笑笑说，“Ya hor, where do you stay actually huh?”
看到他的笑容，还有深深的梨窝，我心想，好帅的男生哦！“I’m staying at Desa Aman, room 207.”
“OK… thanks!”
“So, tomorrow is it? About what time you’ll be coming?”
“9 something or 10… depends on whether you are free during that time…”
“I will be in whole night, so you come around 9 should be fine!”
“OK!”
结果那一晚的课我完全听不进去，眼神一直在追踪着Kali的身影。好几次眼神跟他碰上时，我们彼此都会心的一笑。而我的心，早已在彩排着明晚的对白了……
(4…待续)
我的同话故事 1.3
今天的讲堂挤满了人，可能是主修课的关系，而且期中考也靠近了，每个人都想讲师是时候给贴市了吧。大老远我又看到KK刚从大门挤了近来。刚好我旁边还有一个空位，我便挥挥手示意KK过来。
他一走过来便神秘兮兮的问，“怎样？好看吗？合眼缘吗？”
“你傻了啊？才看一次就知道咩？那有酱神！”
“但是他很喜欢你喔！但他太害羞！他还问我要怎样approach你呢！你说呢？”
“我怎么知道...”
“我就知道你会说不知道！所以我就跟他说，不如他假假到你房问你功课或借课本咯。”
我在心里暗咒KK，这家伙好管闲事！
他继续说，“怎样？他说他不敢冒冒然闯进你房间。所以他叫我问过你先！”
“我几时俜你当我的经理人啦？”
“嗨哟，怎样？就一句嘛！何必婆婆妈妈的...”
“但酱的招数很老套吧！”
“管他！最重要受！So，到底怎样？”
“......”
“怎样？你又不用做什么...迟疑些什么？”
“好吧。叫他过来吧！...酱他知道我知道了吼？”
KK又一声淫笑，“我做事你放心！”
“他娘的！”我心里又一阵暗骂...
(3...待续)
他一走过来便神秘兮兮的问，“怎样？好看吗？合眼缘吗？”
“你傻了啊？才看一次就知道咩？那有酱神！”
“但是他很喜欢你喔！但他太害羞！他还问我要怎样approach你呢！你说呢？”
“我怎么知道...”
“我就知道你会说不知道！所以我就跟他说，不如他假假到你房问你功课或借课本咯。”
我在心里暗咒KK，这家伙好管闲事！
他继续说，“怎样？他说他不敢冒冒然闯进你房间。所以他叫我问过你先！”
“我几时俜你当我的经理人啦？”
“嗨哟，怎样？就一句嘛！何必婆婆妈妈的...”
“但酱的招数很老套吧！”
“管他！最重要受！So，到底怎样？”
“......”
“怎样？你又不用做什么...迟疑些什么？”
“好吧。叫他过来吧！...酱他知道我知道了吼？”
KK又一声淫笑，“我做事你放心！”
“他娘的！”我心里又一阵暗骂...
(3...待续)
我的同话故事 1.2
那天我非常早就到剧院等待上课，空空的剧院安静得可以。我坐在第一行的阶梯发呆。刚刚从泳队的训练回来，累得我连四肢都不想动一动。突然剧院的门被推开，一个印度男子走了进来，我吓得整个人坐直了身躯。
会不会是他呢？我的心脏差点要跳出嘴巴。
他对我笑了笑，坐上了后几排的阶梯。不是这个人啦！干嘛神经兮兮的！哈哈！
15分钟后，同学们陆陆续续的走进了剧院，KK还是一贯的姗姗来迟。班上有好几个印度男子，到底是哪一个呢？我的心根本不能安定下来好好听课。讲师顶着肥肥的肚腩，说了一些什么老实说我一点都听不进去。我的脑在人群中扫射，希望可以寻到一些蛛丝马迹。
“好吧同学们，大家下来围个圆圈准备热身！”当大概三十个人慢慢的走到台上围好了圆圈，大门打开了，KK大踏步的走了进来。他走到人群中一站，我立刻就注意到他身旁的印度男子很亲切的跟他打了招呼，两人聊了起来。热身的过程中，KK向我使了眼色，“就是他了！”然后他又淫淫的笑。我开始打量对面的这个男子，跟我一样的身高及身材，有着阳光的笑容，笑起来还有深深地酒窝。我们的眼神交互时，两人都腼腆的避开。就这样，我们连招呼都没打，课就结束了。
（2...明天再继续写。。。）
会不会是他呢？我的心脏差点要跳出嘴巴。
他对我笑了笑，坐上了后几排的阶梯。不是这个人啦！干嘛神经兮兮的！哈哈！
15分钟后，同学们陆陆续续的走进了剧院，KK还是一贯的姗姗来迟。班上有好几个印度男子，到底是哪一个呢？我的心根本不能安定下来好好听课。讲师顶着肥肥的肚腩，说了一些什么老实说我一点都听不进去。我的脑在人群中扫射，希望可以寻到一些蛛丝马迹。
“好吧同学们，大家下来围个圆圈准备热身！”当大概三十个人慢慢的走到台上围好了圆圈，大门打开了，KK大踏步的走了进来。他走到人群中一站，我立刻就注意到他身旁的印度男子很亲切的跟他打了招呼，两人聊了起来。热身的过程中，KK向我使了眼色，“就是他了！”然后他又淫淫的笑。我开始打量对面的这个男子，跟我一样的身高及身材，有着阳光的笑容，笑起来还有深深地酒窝。我们的眼神交互时，两人都腼腆的避开。就这样，我们连招呼都没打，课就结束了。
（2...明天再继续写。。。）
我的同话故事 1.1
从小到大老实说并没有太多机会接触情情爱爱，毕竟家教蛮严的，所以当你通过朋友告诉我你对我有意思时，我的心里小鹿乱撞得不行！
那年我大学二年级，正愁于该拿那一张选修课，结果我选择了演艺班。土土的我在人群中根本不突出，心想也还好啦，可以安心课业，虽然颇具阿Q精神。但我不晓得竟然有一双眼睛在注视着我。我的朋友KK是个公开的同志，寻找男友并不是问题。而我这些柜里的人，要嘛不敢想，要不然就扮清高，而我是后者。
有一天KK不经意的跟我透露了你喜欢我的消息，我着实吓了一跳，心里除了WTF及窃喜外，还有许多不可思议的成份在。那时我不知道你是谁，只知道你是演艺班里的同学，而且是个印度人(OMG!)。KK说go ahead啊，没有什么损失，而且你也蛮好看的，重要的是你真的蛮喜欢我的。我说我害怕啊，老哥，如果成的话这可是我第一次恋爱啊。你是印度人，文化上也应该有很大的差异吧？更何况我英文不好，沟通会是一个难题吧！KK暧昧的笑了笑，把谜底揭晓了。原来他早把我宿舍的房间号码告诉了你，很大可能那一天你壮起了胆会无声无息的杀到我房间去！
空气突然凝着，是我的自信心在作祟！他在阵阵淫笑声中逃离现场，留下我一人凝重的呆着，想着那随时逼近的爱情，即等待又怕受伤害...
(1...待续)
那年我大学二年级，正愁于该拿那一张选修课，结果我选择了演艺班。土土的我在人群中根本不突出，心想也还好啦，可以安心课业，虽然颇具阿Q精神。但我不晓得竟然有一双眼睛在注视着我。我的朋友KK是个公开的同志，寻找男友并不是问题。而我这些柜里的人，要嘛不敢想，要不然就扮清高，而我是后者。
有一天KK不经意的跟我透露了你喜欢我的消息，我着实吓了一跳，心里除了WTF及窃喜外，还有许多不可思议的成份在。那时我不知道你是谁，只知道你是演艺班里的同学，而且是个印度人(OMG!)。KK说go ahead啊，没有什么损失，而且你也蛮好看的，重要的是你真的蛮喜欢我的。我说我害怕啊，老哥，如果成的话这可是我第一次恋爱啊。你是印度人，文化上也应该有很大的差异吧？更何况我英文不好，沟通会是一个难题吧！KK暧昧的笑了笑，把谜底揭晓了。原来他早把我宿舍的房间号码告诉了你，很大可能那一天你壮起了胆会无声无息的杀到我房间去！
空气突然凝着，是我的自信心在作祟！他在阵阵淫笑声中逃离现场，留下我一人凝重的呆着，想着那随时逼近的爱情，即等待又怕受伤害...
(1...待续)
Saturday, September 27, 2008
相由心生
Wait, this is not a moral post. Don't worry that I'll you nag you about how ethical you should be.
I'm going to talk the type of guy I like; their appearance as well as personality that got reflected on their outlook.
Basically I like "good boy" image, those appear to be boy-next-door face definitely is my weakness, my feet will go limpy over their sweet naive and innocent smile. [expect to see a lot of sweet boys and men with sweet smiles on this blog ya!]
Here, an example for you:
Say, do you feel his sincerity?
Whether or not he is handsome, it's not my priority. Chinese says as long as his look is 顺眼, i love decent look.
Give you one more photo of this guy named King again, because I can't seem to get enough of looking at him and his sweet smile:
OMG, his butt is just perfect. So ya you guess correct, I don't like skimpy or flat butt. If I want to look at skinny and fleshless butt, I'd just have to look into the mirror. [grin]
In fact, in term of physical quality, I like my guy to be a bit "meaty".... nope nope nope, I'm not chaser nor am I muscle worshiper... Maybe by understanding what I dislike, then you will be able to understand what i like...
I dislike [just personal preference please, I'm not discriminating on anyone!]:
1. Skinny, no flesh to hold.
2. Too muscular... like overworked. Although i know how hard you hunks work in the gym, but if it's too hard, then it's going to be "fake"... it's real I know... but i just dislike too "hard" body, okay, certain "organ" is an exception, no doubt about it. [teehee]
3. Too arrogant, ya don't give me your attitude, or think that you are diva or god or anything. That to say, even if you are famous or great achiever or something, please be humble and friendly. Down to earth attracts me more.
So, now I think you should know why I like this King guy so much. He is just "ngam ngam", not too much not too little. ;)
I'm going to talk the type of guy I like; their appearance as well as personality that got reflected on their outlook.
Basically I like "good boy" image, those appear to be boy-next-door face definitely is my weakness, my feet will go limpy over their sweet naive and innocent smile. [expect to see a lot of sweet boys and men with sweet smiles on this blog ya!]
Here, an example for you:
Say, do you feel his sincerity?
Whether or not he is handsome, it's not my priority. Chinese says as long as his look is 顺眼, i love decent look.
Give you one more photo of this guy named King again, because I can't seem to get enough of looking at him and his sweet smile:
OMG, his butt is just perfect. So ya you guess correct, I don't like skimpy or flat butt. If I want to look at skinny and fleshless butt, I'd just have to look into the mirror. [grin]
In fact, in term of physical quality, I like my guy to be a bit "meaty".... nope nope nope, I'm not chaser nor am I muscle worshiper... Maybe by understanding what I dislike, then you will be able to understand what i like...
I dislike [just personal preference please, I'm not discriminating on anyone!]:
1. Skinny, no flesh to hold.
2. Too muscular... like overworked. Although i know how hard you hunks work in the gym, but if it's too hard, then it's going to be "fake"... it's real I know... but i just dislike too "hard" body, okay, certain "organ" is an exception, no doubt about it. [teehee]
3. Too arrogant, ya don't give me your attitude, or think that you are diva or god or anything. That to say, even if you are famous or great achiever or something, please be humble and friendly. Down to earth attracts me more.
So, now I think you should know why I like this King guy so much. He is just "ngam ngam", not too much not too little. ;)
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